Falling Off Track… Still Lost and Searching

Hi there,

Lately, I’ve fallen off track with most things in my everyday life. I lost track of my purpose and found it hard to get back on track personally.

I’ve tried to search for answers through reflections, prayer and going out but I just felt disconnected to everyone and everything.

Deep down, I still lacked something and I wasn’t finding joy in what I was doing.

I guess it’s normal to feel a dip after a big win. Working towards something for so long and getting the desired result is exhilarating.

What’s odd was I felt underwhelmed during my celebrations and unsatisfied and was looking for another purpose or goal.

I’m used to being kept busy and on the go at all times but when it’s time to relax. I couldn’t do so in peace? It’s like I’ve stepped into an unknown zone.

The question of “What now?” pops into my head.

That feeling of uncertainty of the in between period before I start another phase in life.

It’s like I’m free but at the same time not as I have no direction currently. Wanting to talk to someone about this but I don’t want to be a burden on anyone.

Have you ever felt this way? If so, what did you do to get back on track?

I’ve started off again doing the things I love and yet, I still feel lost. My mind wanders off always.

Please reach out, I’d like to hear your experience.

Practicing Away from the Piano

The first time I have heard of this concept was last summer when I attended the Royal Conservatoire’s Piano Summer School. It’s such an interesting concept and it’s quite helpful before entering performances.

I usually have the music score out and follow my whole programme all the way through. It’s as tiring as playing it physically! Focussing on the quality of sound and being musical and relaxed.

I tend to get tension and forget to breathe when it comes to the sections that are extra challenging for me – which takes away a lot of space for the Music to breathe. I’ve been practicing on controlling it and being more engaged.

I am happy to say that I have improved a lot and this is the best I’ve ever been.

I’ll be doing much more practice away from the Piano, right now, I’m not doing it enough. It can be done any time of the day! From memory while you’re doing other things :)) Although, it’s best to be focussed on it 100%.

Keep striving guys! 🙂 You’ll get to where you want to be!

Much love,
Patricia